Summary: ... FRIDAY, not a stranger to Peter’s tendencies, didn’t interrupt him. You must be a psychiatric survivor too huh? Dreadful... With all the breakdowns you mention I have to assume that you have been prescribed many psychiatric drugs to treat your illness. I also developed halos/rays around lights and terrible glare. Depending on the drug, this can be the effect of the drug itself (neurobiologically speaking) or the user's reaction to it (fear or panic, often if they didn't want to take it but did due to peer pressure). But they continue to feel like outsiders who aren't part of ordinary life. Playlist, Written by: JOHN BARLOW, ROBERT HALL WEIR. I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel (Feel) I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel (Oh, oh, yeah) Something really real, so that I can really Feel like a person again-gain-gain. You gradually adjust but I fear that it might one day come back if I remember what it felt like when I first got this persistent migraine aura. about 1 month ago i smoked marihuana for the first time that was awful i got mad my heart rate gone 125 and when i was talking ithough that i was not talking, after 2 weeks from rhat smoke i was on nervous i went bad for 4 times and now after a.month i th8nk i have depersonalization i think i am not me i think i become ill and while i am thinking that my heart rate goes up 110 100 and i feel nervous ... even. I am worried that psychiatry will treat Depersonalizion Disorder with yet more drugs resolving nothing in the process. Depersonalization Disorder is a thing unto itself. in the experience did you feel like everyone and everything had suddenly become you? in my head. Did you not see what the author listed above as the symptoms. It so scary I feel like dying. I'm not sure I could cope if it was a full time thing but in little episodes it's great. No one wants the blame but there is a Truth (there is no morally relative truth -- this is Bullshit) and this is it my friend. Your symptoms seem to suggest it cannot be extricated from anxiety (you mention panic attacks for instance, and agoraphobia), so why describe the anxiety as a symptom of the depersonalisation rather than the other way around? I shudder to think of all the people in Colorado, Oregon, and California who are trying this because they think "legal" means "safe" only to find out it will knock the spirit out of their souls and their lives will never be the same again even well into "recovery". I can only say that the only time I experienced a euphoric high so intense (where I had this uncanny ability to understand complex things and become one with the universe) was while going through multiple psychiatric withdrawals. They feel that they imitate moods and expressions, as if trying to act normal around others. https://www.lyrics.com/lyric/2007202/Grateful+Dead. With the months and then years, I obsessed less and less about the #1 thought in my head: that I had gambled away my sanity with one late-night hit from a bong. Being high can make these same feelings but isn't DP. Right now, I am stuck between DP, my old self, and some new self or identity that developed after DP. i realize you wrote this a while ago, but your experience struck a chord with me. This is the place to chat about your relationships with your in-laws, parents and other relatives, and get support from others who understand whatever it is … Think you know music? I guess my real question is how long must these symptoms remain for one to truly be considered as having DPD? Firstly, whet is the antidepressant that worked for you? Feeling detached. Something about the huge masses/distances triggered panic in me. ... Or he might be gone. People with DPD describe feeling inhuman, like a robot or a rock. It fades off. I'm sure it helps that I am not adding alcohol to the mix anymore! or the documentary series 'The Truth about Cancer'? If you think you may have depersonalization, it is crucial to seek out a physician you feel attuned to, preferably one who has experience treating depersonalization, and in whom you have confidence. Anyways good luck. Eventually it did dissipate but the damage it did in terms of social behavior and disorder, and creating phobias of everything related was profound to the extreme. They were inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame in 1994 and their Barton Hall Concert at Cor… more », Sheet Music How can one tell the difference between having DPD or just experiencing a form of anxiety? I met with a bunch of professionals who basically had no idea what I was talking about. I didn't know how to cope. Feeling panic. yet one day, i felt a collaps of this experience, and an energy shift, i felt myself slip into heavy darkness, confused by the experience, it feels like i am in a heavy darkness, in a world where everything works backwards. It just makes me feel like I don't really know myself at all, and I'm always so unsure of myself. I feel like a stranger . I cringe when I hear people describe themselves mentally ill all because they think, feel, and behave differently from others. However, DPD often manifests without drug use (exhibit a: me) and, in some cases, weed and other substances can actually help with symptoms (again, in my personal experience). Don't get me wrong it does help knowing your not alone with this. Years later he saw commercials suing for a few of the drugs used. Their idea was wipe all your receptors clean. I haven't found a particular link with trauma and these DPD episodes however I do know that when I experience depersonalization with myself I am usually upset, and this sudden change in thinking makes me feel hysterical and extremely cut off from myself. I hated this feeling of detachment, and was angry, depressed. I wish our U.S. Government would put Veteran's needs ahead of Pharmaceutical Profit but all one has to do is follow the money trail in Washington through to Big Pharma. But that’s okay because as time goes on, you’ll become familiar with your hand again, with the wrinkles and callouses and lines. And I come off as very functional. I think you missed the depth of James' point. In fact, she opened the elevator for him so he could reach his destination sooner. ), I've experienced something to this degree, What Happens Next? And many creative people, such as Poe or Sartre, have suffered from it. I am 21 years old, I do smoke marijuana daily, and I'm a college student. And I am appalled, sickened and heartbroken at the treatment they receive when returning back home. Like a person again I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel Something really real, so that I can really feel Like a person again If I am telling the truth Watching my friends break their hearts into two Makes me jealous It's time we all woke up to the 'truth' behind this fraudulent scheme that is so big it is a catastrophe on such a global scale like I've never seen before. And this hell lasted for over 5 months creating such emotional & mental anguish I don't know how I survived. everything fills me with anxiety. Why Your Abusive Narcissistic Mate Claims to Be the Victim, We Have Neanderthals to Thank for These Genetic Traits, 10 Tips for Turning Procrastination into Precrastination, Psychology Today © 2021 Sussex Publishers, LLC, New Evidence on Face Masks to Prevent the Spread of COVID-19. I cannot tell you what it means to me to finally see a blog in PT about DPD. Jacqueline Bastiaan Wijaya shared a video on Instagram: “"I just wanna feel something Something really real so that i can really feel like a person again"…” • … Stranger Ginger I just wanna feel something really real so that I can really feel like a person. Do you people not know what weed effects are? You close your eyes and turn inward, but the very thoughts running through your head seem different. I also relate to the fact that your entire state of thinking changes in those moments. That's when you won't feel lonely anymore. So-called mental illness is a byproduct of unresolved trauma, and nothing more -- even and especially in the case of Schizophrenia -- the symptoms of intense trauma are identical to that of Schzph. Again, what is the AD you are on? They sometimes fixate on the strangeness or foreignness of a single thought or object. It's not the same. Obsessions are never healthy, and not to mention awkward for the other person (the guy in your siltation). Thank you for this illuminating this disorder, for it is certainly not as rare as one might think. I … Dreams have been described as dress rehearsals for real life, opportunities to gratify wishes, and a form of nocturnal therapy. not violent, but not me, i feel as though an invisible being has taken control, and i am just watching in fear of its destruction. Feeling detached. Chris everything you just described sounds exactly like what I'm experiencing right now. Menopause or Aging? That was only three weeks ago, and I haven't exactly done a whole lot of(or any) research on it, and this website has really cleared a few things up for me. I was scared of drugs because that's what I blamed for making me insane in the first place. Still it's disappointing that this disorder is not better known among professionals. Chronic DPD here ... an anxiety disorder? I just wanna feel something If it's never enough At least it's better than nothing After everyone I've lost And every kiss I wasted I don't, I don't need to feel love Just wanna feel something (Something) Just wanna feel something (Something) Just wanna feel something (Something) I just wanna feel I waited so long to feel like I'm worthy Growing up, my mom used to always call me an "in the closet Libra," based on the zodiac sign, because they're said to be really indecisive (this was a joke of course). It's a stranger. just prior, i had experienced some tramatic events in my life where i had a complete mental breakdown. I felt compelled to comment back to you because you are the first person who I have seen that has found it 'amazing'. Also, regarding the "As-If" point, I find myself thinking about the emotions I feel "as a human" and how specific neurotransmitters are involved. All the symptoms listed apply to me...but mine doesn't come in intervals of days or weeks anymore. I spent 50 days in a supposed rehab center for alcoholism. Very disturbing and freightening. It is extremely hard to describe to someone who has not experienced this. These are felt instantly. I HATE IT. I feel detached. Depersonalization is really quite common. Also being anxious in social situations (another disorder, apparently) this is terrifying. Most I've read came from those who did some sort of legal or illegal drug and it freaked them out, or a panic attack and once they calmed form the feeling went away and that was that. And I can't wait! Instead they pump you full of drugs and stop the natural discharge of fight/flight energies that animals do naturally. I once was on fb while having a very stressful day, causing my anxiety to be really bad that night, my emotions were high when suddenly fb isn't something I know anymore, it seems although it's part of a movie, brand new to my eyes. and another was causing organ damage. You feel although you're high on weed but you aren't and it doesn't last forever. Told my mom, visited two GPs. It does more worse than good. I use to vape marijuana and make edibles to help my anxiety and this one time I entered what you experienced a euphoric high that was constant even when I wasn't smoking weed and I became so connected with everything around me and I was spiritual awoken with life pure bliss but shifted after a while into darkness of thinking your not real totaly felt like I wasn't me and I was walking around in a dream for a while but it's fading off as time goes by hope your doing better it really is terrifying. So I coped my focussing on the next logical steps: finish school, study, find work. I thought it was the most amazing thing. I don't think this is such a big secret anymore. Thankfully it only lasts a short while or else I don't know what I'd do ._. Someone posted a whisper in the group Unfiltered Feelings , which reads "I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel, I just wanna feel something, smth really real, to feel like a person again Stranger " Thank God someone put it into words. (4 fans), The Grateful Dead was an American rock band formed in 1965 in Palo Alto, California. From what I've learned it is rarely something that persists for too long. i find myself acting in ways, but don't know why, or thoughts that are not mine. People with DPD repeatedly check their sanity. Deuce Bigelow director Harris Goldberg explored his experiences of depersonalization in the movie Numb. At this point I don't know if I'm even making sense, just trying to put some info about myself. Ross might have gotten him just like … Lamictal added further relief. This is because in order to fully heal it (and related delayed stress symptoms etc) one has to let go and allow for the natural healing process (in the body) to occur. Ok help i need to find this hip hop/edm/eletronic ehhh type song, sung by a female singer, made from 2009-201some. Patients feel as if they have no self that formerly enabled them to deal with the world around them, and with their inner world. This describes the precise feeling and this is the only symptom which actually disturbs me. i felt myself as energy, the same energy that is in everything in the universe, i felt more connected to angels, people, the earth, life. I've suffered from it for over 25 years, but its been only in the last 4 that I had a name for the fog that periodically envelopes me. I would not be typing this if it weren't for that. I feel so miserable at the moment and I just wanna have a friend. Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Warner Chappell Music, Inc. We're doing our best to make sure our content is useful, accurate and safe.If by any chance you spot an inappropriate comment while navigating through our website please use this form to let us know, and we'll take care of it shortly. Feel like a person again C G Am I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G Something really real, so that I can really F Feel like a person again [Verse 2] C If I am telling the truth C Watching my friends break their hearts into two Am There are 60 lyrics related to Feel Like A Stranger. What they don't do is listen to the voices of those who suffer; voices that have more insight into the inner workings of immense suffering than they, by far. Still I feel like a stranger Feel like a stranger Well you know it's gonna get stranger So let's get on with the show Yes and the wheel Gets smoking round midnight You shoot me a look that said let's go Yes and it feels Just like running a red light There ain't no point in looking behind us, no But I feel like a stranger Feel like a stranger So, along with this list of symptoms, I've also been feeling a sense of accelerated time, as if everything is on fast-forward and I can't "tune in" into the moment kind of like in a movie, and the background music is blaring and I can't "feel" what's going on and it's a little bit scary for me. Feeling possessed. Existential thoughts were unbearable. Discussion in 'Random Thoughts' started by CherokeeMist, Jan 19, 2013. Elena Bezzubova, Ph.D., Elena Bezzubova, Ph.D. maintains a private practice as a psychoanalyst in Newport Beach and teaches at the New Center for Psychoanalysis in Los Angeles. Many go to forums doing nothing more but complaining about never ending descriptions of this. My brother moved out last month about 2 hours away. I had an exciting mother who I pretended to be and then transferred identification onto a highly successful husband and have led a charmed life. Many describe the feeling of watching themselves, as if from above. Move on with your life and it fades. He couldn't even have sex for crying out loud and that was unacceptable to him. But that symptom has decreased dramatically since then. I'll be feeling nice and relaxed and I'll go "This is happiness, dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin, endorphins." I am almost 56 and had this most of my life. I'm going to pray that our United States Government would stop slaughtering them and further torturing them using toxic drugs all because they have this 'imaginary' mental illness called PTSD when all they are doing is responding, the best way they can, and the only way they know how, to natural disaster trauma called 'war'. There are way too many labels in psychiatry if you ask me. Stranger Aris Bonao Aris Bonao Aris Bona feo Aris Bonao Ginger Get the help you need from a therapist near you–a FREE service from Psychology Today. You aren't high, you're doing your regular activity then bam the world seems unreal, new and you're questioning if you ever seen this before and then you know you have but can't recall what it is and anxiety sets in. Any medication that affects your brain chemistry is a "crutch". I'm only 25 so I'm pretty upset about that. Your always you. Why is it distinguished as a disorder in and of itself? I couldn't feel. Like, I'll be having a either a good time or a bad time for a good...lets say, six hours and then, when I get home, I'll go, "That felt like a blur." Now, now I'm not saying certain drugs don't have their place in severe situations tinteyly help and indvidual calm down or get over the hump of a tough time. This went on about 8 months. I was fooled hook, line and sinker but after barely living through their mentally torturous withdrawals, I'm no more mentally ill than the man on the moon. People with DPD are sometimes afraid to leave their houses or engage in activities that might trigger panic attacks. I still regularly default to DP but at least I am now aware that that state of mind is my defence mechanism and I need to try very hard to become consciously competent about living in the real world and allowing emotions up to behave appropriately. Takes me a couple of minutes to get back to "normal". I am very glad you have benefitted from some med. She was unaware that one of the criteria of having DPD, rather than DP as part of a PTSD cycle, are episodes that seem to start at random, WITH NO TRIGGER. I Don’t Want To Feel Like A Stranger In Your Life Anymore By Oshin Ahlawat Updated December 10, 2018. One reason is those with DPD do not experience amnesia as in DID, a fugue state or dissociative amnesia. I don't feel comfortable and I feel like I need to make small talk. It's like being in the real world but feeling like you're outside of it. I have 'had it' for 50 years but as it was my only way of being, never realised that other people felt differently. I tried therapy, forcing myself to go through the motions of daily living, focusing on living in the moment.....it was a frustrating, miserable mess. -- and their is a plethora of information to back that up -- this is a tiny example with no writing space to prove this evident fact (see Dr. Thomas Szasz). Feel like a person again C G Am I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G Something really real, so that I can really F Feel like a person again [Verse 2] C If I am telling the truth C It is the ultimate identity crisis, and requires that the persistent introspection it invokes be dealt with in ways most "normal" people hardly even imagine. I do not see this as a crutch. Searching searching. I myself have experienced most of these eight symptoms, as have many other people that I know, yet the symptoms did not last long enough for it to be considered a disorder. Thank you. CherokeeMist Senior Member. I agree that depersonalization isn't the same as the effects of weed, but, just like any psychoactive substance (LSD, shrooms, medication...) THC can bring out symptoms in people who haven't experienced them before, but may have had underlying psychological problems. And um James you're crazy lol clinic psychologist do talk therapy while psychiatrist prescribe medication. I get this but have a question - how is this a disorder in and of itself? Sometimes it happens after smoking marijuana or using "club drugs.". You may link it to acute trauma or years of chronic stress, or to nothing at all. i felt myself in a state of total awareness, and alive, so happy, i felt nothing or anyone could bring me out of this love i had been feeling. I don’t believe in man-made climate change and shake my head in bemusement at the people who are presently running through the streets screaming “climate emergency.” Unlike you, the new me emerging IS the personalised me, as I actively identify with these new experiences and feel that at long last, I am being real. Tried another one, and I have finally got some relief!! I told myself I was becoming self actualised. Whether you enjoy a night on the town or in the comfort of your own home, make a point to talk, laugh, and enjoy each other, even if you’re in a season of distance from each other. It depends on who you get and yea don't go to mental institutions to get your help, get talk therapy and if one therapist doesn't work, you try another, it's like real doctors, if you don't like them you switch hospitals. i was experiencing life from another side of itself, so pure, so loving. Perhaps, now that such a widely read and well known publication has added a specialist in the study and treatment of DPD, facts about the difficulties in both experiencing and curing this life numbing thief will become more widely known and understood. They laugh, mock, humiliate, denigrate, undermine, gaslight and mentally torture those who either oppose, deny, or reject their scientific dogma (mainstream Psychiatric dogma). I feel like he is some stranger that is staying at my house. Am unable to seek proper medical care due to my family ignorance and financial status. I have to wonder if 75% of them are choosing the same option out that I prayed for while enduring the horrific mental torture of a Klonopin withdrawal thank you for this post. its like two selves in one space at the same time, not knowing which is the real self, or what is ok to feel, and what is not. How narcissistic. Browse for Feel Like A Stranger song lyrics by entered search phrase. Reading your comment brought up a memory from when I was a kid. I would love to chat to you, you raised interesting points. But it's a temporary thing and when you keep paying attention to it, it keeps the feeling around. Then the first week. Once the side effects I had also tried everything under the sun. They experience a loss of spirit, an absence of emotions, and no mood changes. Becoming strangers is the only way to fix this hole. (While I know that there is little scientific evidence to link the two, I have talked to many people who subjectively feel the connection.) I had(still have) what my neuro calls 'visual snow', and palinopsia. It's this weird feeling, I feel as if I'm looking and experiencing everything around me for the first time, when it's not. I've never experienced depersonalization while high, but it's different for everyone, so I can't claim that it's completely different. They think over and over about the nature of existence or the void and the dark mysteries of life. They stop traveling, talking to others, watching TV, or even going to doctors. Although I will say some of the symptoms she listed above are nowhere close to the descriptions I've ever read anywhere myself online. Yes and it feels about like running a red light Now there ain't no point in looking behind us, no, though Still I (feel like a stranger) I feel like, I feel like a stranger. and I think he said something like "uhhhh, no I don't know what you mean" and looked at me funny. The band was known for its unique and eclectic style, which fused elements of rock, folk, bluegrass, blues, reggae, country, improvisational jazz, psychedelia, and space rock, and for live performances of long musical improvisation. Like I said there is nothing, short of Nazism and Communism (which they like btw as in Socialism -- that's why they all support Statism and seductive Leftist ideology), that is as evil as institutionalized Psychiatry and Psychology (including many non-Psyd/Phd Therapists and many Social Workers). Any med that affects your neurochemistry was discontinued, not weaned, but stopped cold turkey. Some medications can be beneficial as well, but not the usual SSRI variety. You have to get the super glue, you have to hold it down, you have to heal yourself. There is no shame in taking meds. You have to do it by yourself. I have experienced exactly what you went through I was in this euphoric happy and spiritual place that was so peaceful no worries in my day, felt so connected to the world and people around me kinda like a Zen of energy positive energy was always with me and one day it turned backwards and everything is now negative energy and I feel disconnectted kinda like I lost the old me that feeling of pure bliss has just disappeared and it feels like everyday I'm going to find it back. Are you aware of Dr. Andrew Wakefield? -- you know what I'm saying -- and the fuckin roller coaster of bullshit continues as the individual falls into a spiral of never ending hell, misery, despair and torture. I have never abused it. The reason it is so unheard of is because those suffering from it often have great difficulty explaining precisely what they are experiencing to those who haven't experienced it themselves. Abstract ruminating. Related artists: Feel, Like torches, Like vultures, Like a storm, Like-it, Like moths to flames, A voice like rhetoric, Alive like me I was a frustrated, miserable, angry, depressed mess. Lyrics to Feel Like a Stranger by Grateful Dead from the Spring 1990: So Glad You Made It album - including song video, artist biography, translations and more! It last sometimes seconds, mins. First, they are 'labeled' mentally ill for experiencing horrors beyond most our comprehension, second, they Strangers never do. Whenever I've tried to explain what its like to others, I'm either not believed, or they don't seem to comprehend the level to which it can ruin a life. I started running, which is a true rarity for me. B12 is a biggie too. What Is to Blame for Your Sleep Issues? I remember trying to explain it to my mother and not even being able to tell if I'm talking about a thought or a feeling. I feel for me this is chronic fight/flight, and I am "stuck" in this mode. You actually need an ego in the first play for this to happen. People with DPD suffer from not feeling that they are acting, but instead they have a strange feeling of "as-if acting." and adverse effects set in: akathesia, insomnia, crippling depressions, migraines, psychosis, paranoia, suicidal & in my case homicidal thoughts ect, ect, ect that Big Pharma is very well aware of but instead deliberately deceives the general public by a host of fraudulent means. "Their music," writes Lenny Kaye, "touches on ground that most other groups don't even know exists." I just don’t want to feel like a stranger … I have been crying because of how sad I feel and loneliness isn't helping that. For many it's simply a matter of realizing it's harmless. A day to remember our veterans who gave up their lives to protect our country, and our U.S. Constitution. Maybe that's what you need right now. But to add a non-critical comment: I think the hardest part of this disorder/symptom for me is not trusting myself. And just as your hand won’t stop changing, you shouldn’t stop living or stop loving. I'm going to guess that your more likely a regular human being, although you feel strange, bizarre, and different at times. I felt like I had no idea who I was when I got out. Ultimately, DPD is not something to hit over the head with either drugs or therapy. Smoked weed, thought my heartbeat had stopped. Like trying to describe the color blue to a blind person. A lot of people say «I feel like an old soul in a young body». I found your post very profound. I've recently learned that what I'm experiencing is an actual mental disorder when people came to my school and talked to us for Mental Disorder/Suicide Prevention week and one of the speakers had DPD. People asking me "are you okay" even seems so unfamiliar to me.. Neurontin (yet another anticonvulsant used for many other purposes has been effective). It changed everything in my life, mostly for the worse. and that gets frustrating. Like, I'm only 18, isn't that a thing elderly people say? The most clinically true and psychologically sharp descriptions of depersonalization are those given by people with DPD. Like you, there is a strong urge to cast off the past yet I can't destroy or give up everything. Depersonalization may happen when you first wake up, or while flying on an airplane. I also know if individuals with bipolar, and schizoprhenia who have experienced this, taken Klonopin and the DP/DR went away -- not their main disorder. 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